I feel like we’re drifting apart and there’s nothing I can do about it. I live him so much but we always argue about the stupidest things and there is no compromise. I just don’t feel like he wants me anymore. Things feel different I wish I knew what to do to stop this from happening. I don’t want to lose someone who I care about so much :(
It really sucks that I can’t call you anymore. You used to be the one to sort through my thoughts when I couldn’t handle them. Now I need you but you aren’t here. I don’t know what to do. Im happier without you but I’m also kind of lost. :(
Im sorry for being so mood swingy and irritable lately. Letting stupid insecurities clutter up my head and I shouldnt be taking it out on you.
Its hard to see all those super thin, toned, tan, blonde girls. It seems like everywhere I turn there is some gorgeous girl there to make me feel bad about myself. Im not as tiny as I used to be and Im not blonde or tan or anything special. And the fact that you dont discriminate between races doesnt help much either because now I have to be jealous of white and black girls. I always have the thought in the back of my head that youre going to wake up one of these days and ask yourself why you are with me when you could be with someone so much better. Im scared to lose you evern though you give me no reason to be.
I wouldnt be as scared about all this if you werent so important to me. I cant even begin to describe just how perfect you are in my eyes. You are everything Ive wanted so far. Youre absolutely the cutest, most handsome man Ive laid eyes on. You have sexy tattoos and the perfect build. Youre strong and like to hold me in your arms and toss me around a little when we joking around. You match me perfectly. You take charge and I love that but you listen when I ask you to do something or not to do something. You have amazing friends who you let me hang out with and you dont get jealous. You occasionally get a cute little jealous tendency when other guys look at me or talk to me and youre protective, letting everyone know Im all yours. You are so incredibly sweet and thoughtful but you know how to joke around and make me laugh. Youll do the craziest things just because I ask you to or because you want to show me you love me. You painted my nails for me haha. You just make me so happy, happier than anyone else has in the past. I could go on for days about all the reasons I love you.
Im so lucky to have met you and made you all mine. I never want it to change. You are perfect for me and I need you in my life. You give me no reason to worry but now you can at least understand why Im so scared to lose you. I know Ill never find anyone quite as amazing as you <3
